Day 12- God's Provision!!

We have been blessed again by God!! Even after I lost my faith that this would all work out, He still provided for us. We only had enough money to pay for the rest of our fees i.e immigration, drive back to Kiev, and apartment in Kiev until December 24th. We did not have ANY money for food, our daily drive to the orphanage or store, apartment rent, drive to the airport to leave or anything else to last us until December 31st. To be honest we were even $200 short in our immigration money. We were just not prepared for all of these "FEES" that came up, and really there was no way of knowing. We came with every cent we had. This is the reason why I was so upset about the extra week here. As a wife and mother, I didn't know how I was going to be able to feed my family. And we were not going to have enough money to stay in Ukraine or leave with the children. I felt desperate and absolutely 100% NOT in control. But I am seeing that this is a never-ending lesson God is teaching me. I am NEVER in control any way. If we had had the money, would we have depended on Him?? We know that every cent we have for this adoption came from God, but deep down, did we truly depend on Him? Tyler has been the one this whole trip who has said, "Babe, we can't worry, God is in Control, we need to have faith that he didn't bring us here just to forget about us!" I was the one with the spirit of "little faith". We have been so blessed by some of our friends who have been emailing and asking "Are you guys ok, financially?" and our family have asked every day, What can we do, we can help you, we will give you everything we have to get you home!! I even stayed up until 12:30 last night with my mom on the phone, trying to figure out how to deposit a check into our account. She just wants to make sure we will be ok. These friends and family are being used by God to provide for this adoption, just like He has done for the last year and a half ago when we started this process. Last night I went to bed, wondering how we would get through this, and this morning when we got back from seeing Asher and Emma, there was an email and money in our account. All I could do was drop to my knees and thank God! We are going to make it! We are so thankful for love and support of our family and friends!!

Today we visited again with Asher and Emma. Hunter pointed out that this was the 10th time we got to spend time with them. We can see such a huge difference in them!! Asher is getting stronger and stronger and loves to laugh!! And Emma, she is also getting stronger. She loves her daddy, especially when he throws her in the air and swings her around (being supported of course)! Today I figured out how to put on the moby wrap our friends Jerry and Kelly let us borrow. I put Emma in it and the only time she would smile or laugh was when I was doing squats. I can tell I am going to lose alot of weight with these kids!! She is a dare-devil where Hunter and Asher like to stay planted on the ground. Her little smile is so beautiful! Hunter just loves being a big brother, and I would have to say that it comes naturally to him. He thinks it's funny how Asher laughs at him when he plays with his feet. He has been so wonderful on this trip, and I can't imagine it with out him.

Thank you again for all your support and prayers. Please pray that court on Tuesday goes quickly and they will let us take Emma and Asher after the hearing. Also please pray that their birth certificates come super quickly!!